the first day, listen to sad music until your heart breaks
and wait for it to bleed.

the next day
put your face
in the sink
and imagine the water is tears

the third day,
smile as much as you can. buck up till you
realize you are empty

then cry me a dry river
filled with sighs
and feel the heaviness
in each part of you
as the pain rushes itn

it takes more energy to
breathe
but don't worry
you just have to wait for the tears to come.


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i wrote that a few weeks ago, but now i am not sad like i was them
i do miss high school though. and i worry that high school doesn't miss me.
i'd like to be back there, and be best friends with the girls
i miss so much. oh well.