gotta have heart and music

sick today. ear infection, sinus infection, lethargy. yuck.

i don't like it when people are mad at me. but maybe its time to stop taking sides, stop choosing friends, stop "making more of an effort," and just focus on how to be myself. the rest will come?

i miss my friends, my girls, my hugs and kisses, my aching. i miss mom and uncle brian and uncle stephen. i miss my cousins, i miss haley and claire and simone and my dad. i miss geraghty and jeff. i miss pettet and anna and claudia and all the neighborhood. i miss caroline and joni and elly. i miss katie lantz and katie mckay. i miss olivia and tori and sylvie and mykaila. i miss ravenna and selina. i miss alexa. i miss emmy and charlotte and jack. i miss grant and colin and josh visser. i miss kat burgess and vic zinsley. i miss amanda and kyrie and sam and kirstin. i miss merry and gracies. i miss maria mills. i miss kenz and matthea. i miss my grandparents. i miss rachel and i miss lizzie frazier. i miss flo and laura and katie bent. i miss lunchtimes, dance classes, my hardwood floor, whitney, nikki, tacie, mckenna, lilly, sarah, and molly. i miss gogga and jasmine and yael. i miss kelvin. i miss xanda and margot and ellen. i miss kayla and jordan and kathy mac. i miss enzo and zach. i miss copper jesus. i miss church and ballard and emp. i miss the zoo. i miss being happy with where i was. i miss hugs. damn, do i miss hugs.
then again, i know it'll be fine. you know how i know that? i could replace "miss" in that whole list with "love" or "need" or "admire" and it would still all be true.